twenty-three

I feel like the past few days have been a desert of blog posts. Maybe I haven’t had much to say. That’s not the case, as the following posts will show. But I think  I’ve felt a bit stifled as of late.

After I talked about my views of the emergent church a couple weeks ago, I just didn’t feel like I had much to say. Nobody really confronted me outright for saying anything too out of line and nobody really reinforced me. I couldn’t have expected all of the people who read this blog (show of hands please…1….2………3…), but more so the responses from people I talked to about writing that post. My small group, my close friends around here, nobody really said much either way. I was encouraged a bit, but I kinda wanted to be controversial or something.

Maybe that’s the thing: I want to get a rise out of somebody, just so that I’m reinforced. Something tells me this is naive and stupid for a number of reasons. Love God, serve God because you desire God, not because being a Christian or thinking about new ways to follow Him are radical or cool. Forgive me for ever desiring to have the latest ideas or at least wanting to belong to a portion of our generation that is on the leading edge of thought. Friends, humble me. Force me to wake up a bit. Tell me when I’m out of line and I’ve lost sight of God’s path. Someone please rebuke me or slap me or something. I know I’m not a heretic or a radical, but I also know my ideas and convictions can really get in the way of seeing things for what they really are.

Does anyone hear this? Does anyone feel like this about themselves? Help me pursue an authentic life. I’ll do my best to do the same for you.

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